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15 July 2011 @ 01:05 am
 bah! To be honest right now... 

My mind  is kinda numb.  I seem to have a lot of hidden anger that I'm not owning up to.  Well, truth be told.. I don't know how to express myself. I usually just drink\sleep\waste time on the internet\make my self forget it.  Maybe it's is a combination of anger, sadness and longing.  yet I'm not really feeling it. I have to keep myself busy or I'll get even more bored than I already am now. That's it. That's whats wrong. I'm bored. Bored bored bored bored.  

I feel like doing something reckless 

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19 June 2011 @ 10:32 pm
It's summer time.. and I've been uneventfully BUSY! I've been playing nurse and I'm kinda content.. and a little bored with it. I can't wait till my driving lessons start!  Then I can get out of the house on my own! I don't remember the last time I went out. ( T ▽ T )ノ


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10 June 2011 @ 09:27 pm
It's so hard to be strong when the strongest person you know is at their weakest point. I hope it all comes out o.k.. My heart is straining now.

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06 June 2011 @ 08:37 pm
I want to make sure I do something productive this summer. Even if I'm not doing marching band. ( though it will be greatly missed).

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06 June 2011 @ 08:31 pm
 Here I come...pharmacy school.
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13 April 2011 @ 07:18 pm
As far as school this is perhaps the most stressful I've ever had. I'm not sure why... But now I'm just exhausted,disgruntled, and everything bad seems to happen one after another. First a shitty 1st semester of physics, then shitty math grades, ( I never struggles with math this much before till this year), I lost a cellphone that my ipod touch, the band has its own set of sighs of frustrations and growls as I've yet to get a 1 marching season or concert season,and in ROTC competitions we've always got SLAUGHTERED for some reason.... all the judges have a bias towards my school district and it's REALLY noticeable.  I'm just waiting to the day I graduate.. maybe I won't loose all my hair then. 

But I'm really surprised at my self.. I've taken this stress very calmly...But I know this is only the beginning. Pharmacy school won't be easy... and I fear I'll be so clueless when I get there. 
07 December 2010 @ 07:21 pm
As this year wraps up, I find myself a little more aware of things, growing and maturing.  I still can't spell the word " character" but that's o.k. <3

I'm getting active in my yoga more and my body feels great and I'm taking stress more easier.  I can slowly feel my body getting less and less stiff. Everyday I get to think about how to better myself and I'm slowly starting to recover from relapses. When I play my clarinet and run I'm disgruntled and upset cause I can feel the cigs affecting me. I never god addicted to them... but I know I don't want them to damage me any longer. Especially seeing how active I am.  So I am officially putting them down.

This school year isnt doing so hawt. I know my GPA is shit now.  :s
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19 July 2010 @ 03:54 pm

This will take some getting used to.
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19 July 2010 @ 01:30 am

I write like
H. P. Lovecraft

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This one is from a recent story.

I write like
Dan Brown

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!

This is from I story I NEED to finish.

lol I have no idea who those people are.

edit: WTF the da vinci code? haha
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18 July 2010 @ 10:55 pm

Rest in Peace long straight hair.
It's curly now and I hate it with a passion now.
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